Bitch please.
Stop hurting me.
I'm afraid I'm gonna break and that's not something you wanna see.
It's not gonna be nice.
Believe me,I know I'm sick. But yes,I've been trying to hold it in.
I built walls so high that no one's been brave and persistent enough to climb them.
I just wanted to protect myself from the pain and the mistakes that I did.
Bitch please.
Don't hurt me.
I'm scared.For you and for me.
If I break,I won't be able to control myself.
I wanna hurt you so bad for hurting me like this. Hurt you so bad until you can't wake up anymore.
I want you to feel my pain.
Why can't you understand that I hate what you're doing?
I wanna hurt you but they say that I have to keep being nice.
WHY ? WHY ? FUCK YOU !
FUCK THIS FRIENDSHIP SHIT!
I'm afraid I'm losing it.
So many people walking out of my life.
So many hurt because of me.
I'm trapped.Please,I don't wanna live anymore.
I can't go through this pain again.
I don't deserve to have friends. I'm just someone who would hurt them.
WHY CAN'T I BE A BAD PERSON? WHY DO I HAVE TO KEEP BEING NICE?
I WANNA HURT THEM SO BAD!

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believe me when i say that i never wanted to be like this.
i know it's a sin and i'm trying to change.

these words do relate to me except that i'm still single.
hahahahahahahhaha.

penniless

what could be worse than goin thru another period of being penniless?
i know.i know.i'm horrible.
i don't know where all my money went.
wow i really gotta start managing my money or else i'll end up being a 'beggar' every semester.
gosh this is hard.
but i'm never gonna beg.
nope nope nope.

Friendship is a piece of shit

there are a lot of things going in my mind now
anger,revenge and whatnot
but i can't do it and even if i can,i won't
Look,I love you and i don't wanna hurt you.
I've been trying so hard to give you everything..but all you did was hurt me.
Because of you,I remember why I was reluctant to be involved in another relationship.
I'm so tired of just giving and not receiving anything in return.

i am so sorry

look i'm really sorry that i forgot your birthday.
i really am.
anyway i am never good at remembering brithdays!
i thought you knew that.
i can't even remember my own siblings' birthdays!

KENAPA KENAPA KENAPA

Mood bila nak exam.

Mood yang nak marah orang tak tentu pasal.Mood yang selalu nak sensitif lebih.

Mood ini mood yg aku cuba buang.

All i needed was a companion,a friend who would listen to my problems and sobbings and in return,I'll do the same for you.

I can't be happy

family memories..
what is there to remember?
nothing.
I've been with Batch101 for around 2 years now.But none of them know my story.
If they'd known,they'd have understood why I'm like this.
Afraid to trust anyone.Or to fall in love.Or to get attached to anything or anyone.
I hate myself too.They said that you'll only be happy if you love youself and start forgiving those who've hurt you.
I guess that's why I couldn't be happy.