random post 2

well..i've never been really serious in any of my posts so far..

okay..

here it goes..haha~

this week turned out to be quite teary ya know..

with all the hugging and everything

i've finally realised that school years are the best years in my life

cause i got to know a lot of things.,,

friendship..life and etc

i've been at the bottom and the top of my life

and i'm actually grateful form having been a student of SMAI

back when i was in Form 3(zaman jahiliyah kot)

umm..i used to say "sekolah tak menentukan siapa aku..i live on my own..my attitude us what defines me not my school"

but now,come to think of it..i'd say that i'm actually a fool.yeah.you read it right.a complete MORON!

haha~

i was stupid to not listen to what others said..

and i'm sorry for that..this has nothing to do with my coming SPM..it's about me.

i take everything i did when i was still clueless of what life is really like as reminders.

no pain no gain right?

i'm sorry cause i'm not that good as how you think i am

i'm trying my very best to change for the better..

it's sad for me to say goodbye to SMAI after being an IRSHADIAN for five years..

but life has to go on

i can't keep being stuck here..

i have a world to travel out there..

so pray for me..

my dream is to go to SOUTH KOREA..more specifically SEOUL

i dont know..i just fell in love with the country at first sight..

yeah.the first reason WAS because of KPOP..

but now,not anymore..

i want to prove to him that I CAN DO IT..

koreans are not all about eating samgyeobsal or going to toilets without washing

WHAT?even some MALAYSIANS do that okay??!

form the way i see it,you're just being too narrow-minded

not all koreans do that..okay?!

i don't get it why some people have to ridicule my dream of going there..or trying to learn hangul

even if i don't go there,hangul is a form of knowledge..you can't ridicule knowledge..

people keep saying that it's no use for you to go there

don't you understand?it's MY DREAM!

okay.fullstop.

A DOCTOR??NO!

i'm a fifth former

and am going to sit for SPM in two weeks time..

ohoho~~

okay.chill out.

i'm in a dilemma right now.yeah.you read it right.

DILEMMA.

what courses should i be taking?

meds?or engineering?or perhaps TESL?

I DON'T KNOW!

TESL?i can't even teach people right..

MEDS?

i've always been interested in forensics but everyone said that MALAYSIAN CSI sucks!

i am afraid of BLOOD..(thanks to my friend ~.~") but i think i can still manage that

i really love working with DNAs and you know,do ballistic tests and everything..

but..is it worth it?

CSI has been a great influence in my life.

i've been watching that series for almost ten years..

until i know every episode that has been broadcasted on AXN

call me a big fan:)

ENGINEERING?well,thanks to my mom and dad..

they both took EE.

and what i'm supposed to do?

i've been playing with broken PCs since i was little

i've been playing with that soldering tool since i was a kid

HAHAHA~am not bragging okay!

some people said,"kenapa nak langgar fitrah seorang perempuan?"

SAYA TAK LANGGAR OKAY!

SAYA CUMA MINAT SAJA!

haish..pening laaa~~

nak ambil apa ni?

i seriousy can't understand why all parents want their kids to be doctors.

hmmm..i'd just kill people if i become a doctor..

HAHAHA~

so??