what could be worse than goin thru another period of being penniless?
i know.i know.i'm horrible.
i don't know where all my money went.
wow i really gotta start managing my money or else i'll end up being a 'beggar' every semester.
gosh this is hard.
but i'm never gonna beg.
nope nope nope.
Friendship is a piece of shit
there are a lot of things going in my mind now
anger,revenge and whatnot
but i can't do it and even if i can,i won't
Look,I love you and i don't wanna hurt you.
I've been trying so hard to give you everything..but all you did was hurt me.
Because of you,I remember why I was reluctant to be involved in another relationship.
I'm so tired of just giving and not receiving anything in return.
anger,revenge and whatnot
but i can't do it and even if i can,i won't
Look,I love you and i don't wanna hurt you.
I've been trying so hard to give you everything..but all you did was hurt me.
Because of you,I remember why I was reluctant to be involved in another relationship.
I'm so tired of just giving and not receiving anything in return.
i am so sorry
look i'm really sorry that i forgot your birthday.
i really am.
anyway i am never good at remembering brithdays!
i thought you knew that.
i can't even remember my own siblings' birthdays!
i really am.
anyway i am never good at remembering brithdays!
i thought you knew that.
i can't even remember my own siblings' birthdays!
KENAPA KENAPA KENAPA
Mood bila nak exam.
Mood yang nak marah orang tak tentu pasal.Mood yang selalu nak sensitif lebih.
Mood ini mood yg aku cuba buang.
All i needed was a companion,a friend who would listen to my problems and sobbings and in return,I'll do the same for you.
I can't be happy
family memories..
what is there to remember?
nothing.
I've been with Batch101 for around 2 years now.But none of them know my story.
If they'd known,they'd have understood why I'm like this.
Afraid to trust anyone.Or to fall in love.Or to get attached to anything or anyone.
I hate myself too.They said that you'll only be happy if you love youself and start forgiving those who've hurt you.
I guess that's why I couldn't be happy.
what is there to remember?
nothing.
I've been with Batch101 for around 2 years now.But none of them know my story.
If they'd known,they'd have understood why I'm like this.
Afraid to trust anyone.Or to fall in love.Or to get attached to anything or anyone.
I hate myself too.They said that you'll only be happy if you love youself and start forgiving those who've hurt you.
I guess that's why I couldn't be happy.
duit
Minggu ni aku semangat pegi kelas sebab harapan masuk duit .hahaha.
Semalam dpt tau yg duit patut masuk hari ni tapi sebab bank cuti so masuk isnin la.
Tahan je nak nangis.sedih.
Sebab aku tak dpt byr hutang cepat2.
Aku tak suka gila hutang.tak tenang weh hidup.
Mcm tak leh bernafas.semalam tidur pun kejap2 terjaga.
Tapi sepanjang aku betul2 tadak duit ni banyak org tolong aku.alhamdulillah.semalam ad kwn bg kebab.kebab mahal kot weh.takpa nnt aku byr balik^^ ada org tlg masakkan dinner la.baik kan depa ni.takpa nnt ak byr balik semua tu jgn
risau.tapi ada jugak satu jenis manusia ni yg buat aku nak menangis or mcm nak cekik buang kat laut.
Manusia yg tengok2 aku mcm takut aku mintak mknn ka curi mknn depa ka an.
Manusia2 ni sebenarnya dulu aku banyak habiskan duit kot utk depa ni.peh panas.aku tak mintak pun belanja ka hapa ka tapi tak payah la nak tengok aku sampai mcm tu.sakit hati gila.muka baik nak mampus usrah sakan tp hati mcm bangkai.takpa nnt aku belanja hampa bila masuk duit isnin ni biaq terkelu sikit noh.hahahha.
Tapi kan kadang2 terasa mcm aku ni pengemis pula.kadang2 memang rasa malu.malu sangat smp aku takda mood nak ckp dgn org or pegi kelas.
Semalam dpt tau yg duit patut masuk hari ni tapi sebab bank cuti so masuk isnin la.
Tahan je nak nangis.sedih.
Sebab aku tak dpt byr hutang cepat2.
Aku tak suka gila hutang.tak tenang weh hidup.
Mcm tak leh bernafas.semalam tidur pun kejap2 terjaga.
Tapi sepanjang aku betul2 tadak duit ni banyak org tolong aku.alhamdulillah.semalam ad kwn bg kebab.kebab mahal kot weh.takpa nnt aku byr balik^^ ada org tlg masakkan dinner la.baik kan depa ni.takpa nnt ak byr balik semua tu jgn
risau.tapi ada jugak satu jenis manusia ni yg buat aku nak menangis or mcm nak cekik buang kat laut.
Manusia yg tengok2 aku mcm takut aku mintak mknn ka curi mknn depa ka an.
Manusia2 ni sebenarnya dulu aku banyak habiskan duit kot utk depa ni.peh panas.aku tak mintak pun belanja ka hapa ka tapi tak payah la nak tengok aku sampai mcm tu.sakit hati gila.muka baik nak mampus usrah sakan tp hati mcm bangkai.takpa nnt aku belanja hampa bila masuk duit isnin ni biaq terkelu sikit noh.hahahha.
Tapi kan kadang2 terasa mcm aku ni pengemis pula.kadang2 memang rasa malu.malu sangat smp aku takda mood nak ckp dgn org or pegi kelas.
FROZEN
I just watched FROZEN and damn it's freakin awesome and yes,the best disney movie ever!!!
Where can i find a sister like that?
I don't have a sister..well,i'm the eldest--
It'd be fun to have a sister sometimes..at least I;d have someone to lean on or tell my stories to..hehe
I guess my mom is my sister and my friends are my sisters too:)
Thank you^^ I love you guys so much!
when?
there's a question in my head.
it's been bothering me for a few weeks.
when will i find the strength to forgive him?
i was gonna forgive him but he did it again.
he started hurling those accusations against her again.
i thought he was a changed man after umrah and all.
tell me i'm wrong.please.
TOPIK
TOPIK.
Benda paling =="
I won't reseat for it.Never.
All these essay writings are so boring.
Aku tak menulis dari hati,cuma tulis untuk siapkan homework.
Aku tak suka.
Writing is my passion.Or mungkin bahasa jadi penghalang utk aku express feelings kot.
Dulu time English,aku paling suka kalau dpt homework essay.
Hahaha.
That's where I tell stories of my life.
I can't bluff when I write essays.
Bagi aku,authors write using their experiences.
Benda paling =="
I won't reseat for it.Never.
All these essay writings are so boring.
Aku tak menulis dari hati,cuma tulis untuk siapkan homework.
Aku tak suka.
Writing is my passion.Or mungkin bahasa jadi penghalang utk aku express feelings kot.
Dulu time English,aku paling suka kalau dpt homework essay.
Hahaha.
That's where I tell stories of my life.
I can't bluff when I write essays.
Bagi aku,authors write using their experiences.