i hate seniority

I didn't remember applying for a janitor or a cleaner position apart from applying for my JPA.
Or did I?
The idea of being the youngest therefore you must help the ajks clean the place after every event is and shall remain the WORST IDEA OR TRADITION THAT HAS BEEN MADE BY  HUMANS IN SOUTH KOREA.

The idea of making  better community by forcing the juniors to abide by your every rule and nonsense traditions while you yourself aren't even trying to do so is so =="

You were the ones who said, "Be matured than your age.Please grow up.You're not babies."
But it seemed today you were more childish than us.
How can such things be allowed to happen?

If you say that only a few of us are like that,then i can say the same thing for my fellow friends.
You are a bad senior and a bad example to us.

After going through comments made by seniors on this issue,I've decided it's all part of a misunderstanding.
BUT ..
You shouldn't make the group as a place for you to spit out your insatisfactory.
First of all why post in a group where there are so many seniors?
To embarass our batch?To make us look small?
To gain support from your fellow friends?
That is so lame.

I admit that some of my batchmates were impolite by not helping the seniors to mop the floor and all.
But again,who spilt it should be the one mopping it and not leaving it to the ajks or juniors.
So siapa yg tumpahkan tu patut rasa bersalah nak mampus sebab kau dah spark war between us.
Orang tengok batch aku mcm kitorang ni tak pernah pegi sekolah belajar adab membuang sampah dan  tolong menolong which is really sakai.
Lagipun menolong kerana terpaksa dan takut senior,itu kan hipokrit sial.
Lagipun kaki tangan ada sendiri angkat la.Yang senior pun dah makan longgok kat belakang tu sapa ajar?!

And comments saying that we are childish,I think I've seen far more childish acts from the seniors than my batchmates.Habis tu nak suruh aku duduk diam tak cakap apa2 accept everything macam orang bodoh?
Baik aku buat surgery pegi buang otak.Memang betul tu nasihat but only the first part of it.Yg belakang tu dah melalut pasal juniors kena buat semua kerja la apa la.Setakat tak ikut ikrar junior tu aku tak takut pun sebab tu ikrar manusia bukan janji dgn Tuhan.Now that part yg buat aku marah.Aku datang nak belajar bukan nak hidup dalam komuniti yang terlalu mementingkan seniority.

Lagi satu,alasan nak mengajar thru this kind of tradition is so lame.Aku pergi sekolah menengah pun ada benda ni.From my experience,kau buat macam tu lagi la junior taknak dengar cakap lagi la diorg benci kau.Seriously,aku trauma dgn korang.Aku seriously patah hati dan terkilan dgn pilihan korang yg memilih kekerasan as a better way to educate us.Aku tak boleh nak respek korang lepas tu.Aku kecewa sbb korang memilih utk tidak mengubah tradisi ni.

Korea mmg tempat best tp lg best kalau all this fucked up seniority issue tak ada.

Thank You

I have a Christian roommate but hey,that didn't stop us from becoming best friends.

So tonight,she started telling me stories of how her leaders became who they are today.

And somehow,all of them had something similar with me.

Father problems.

Except that my father doesn't drink.

So we talked about a lot of things until I just couldn't keep it anymore.

I started crying.

Thank you Ruth for always being there for me.

I don't care about the difference in our religion.

My religion is mine and yours is yours.

What matters is you are my best friend.

Fotografizophobia

한국에 와서 물론 한국어 실력이 늘었지만 영어와 말레이어는 ...ㅠㅠ
나 어느 나라 사람이야???

siapa yang paham,paham la ehehe

anyways,hari ni tangkap gambar graduation.
it was supposed to be taken next february but teachers said it might be too cold for us to even go outside so they took it today.

i was happy because hey,that was my first time wearing ..em..idk how to say it haha^^"
but,i felt this strange feeling.
i felt like a lost kid.
people were busy taking pictures of them wearing robes and all
but i was just standing there,scanning.
"What am i doing here?"
I was scared.Of photographs.
They're remnants of my past.They remind me of things I've done and the fun times I've had.
But they also remind me of the people that used to be with me and the sad times.
That hurts.
I just don't wanna go near that again.
I had GAD on Sunday but there were 2 or 3 pictures of it in my phone and nothing else.
I was surprised at how much I'e changed.
I didn't imagine that it'd be this bad.

tunggu saya ya umi^^

Pernah tak mimpi pasal mak kau pergi?
Pergi tinggalkan kau selama-lamanya.
Aku pernah.
Dan aku akan terjaga sambil menangis.
Takut kan?
Mungkin kau paling sayang ayah kau,atau mungkin dua2.
Tapi aku sayang mak aku lebih dari ayah aku.

Jadi kalau mak aku pergi dulu,
aku ..tak sanggup bayangkan.
aku tak tahu apa aku akan buat..
aku tak sanggup bayang pun..
Cuma aku selalu minta,
jangan la ambil mak aku dulu.
ambil aku dulu.
sebab adik2 aku masih muda,masih kecil,masih perlukan mak..
kalau mak aku pergi dulu,siapa nak jaga adik2 aku?

sejak datang sini,aku rindukan mak aku sangat2.
dulu dapat la balik sebulan sekali kadang2 dua minggu sekali
dapat la tengok muka mak aku.
tapi sekarang tunggu la setahun setengah baru dapat tengok.
sekarang pun tengah menghitung hari bila boleh balik.
nak peluk cium mak aku puas2.
umi,tunggu aisyah ya^^