MONOPHOBIA

I just don't know how to explain this to them.That I have monophobia.
I just knew it too anyway.
It's scary just having thoughts that I have to be alone.
When i go home and there's no one,I'm so scared up to the extent of crying.
I had  a fight with my best friend a few months ago and we're still not okay till today.
She made me feel safe and when she was around,I felt as if nothing could hurt me.
This phobia explained why I felt so lonely when we fought.
I felt as if wherever I go,pain and harm is lurking in every corner.
And now I found a new best friend.
We're going to the same university.I'm happy.I feel safe already.
But we're of different scholarships.
And some say that we can't stay together.I'm scared already.