BIG DREAMS

wow.gosh.and wow.
in just two days..i've made more than a post:)
hehe~
so far my trial results are 4 A+.but i won't be so sure bout that lah.gotta work harder:))


my mom did get the chance to play piano and  guitar back when she was a college student.
so i asked her what if i take music lessons?and she said..NO!
i respect her decision for i know a mom's words never fail to be true.
so i cancelled my dream of learning music and asked her what if i take language courses.
 "Of course i'm happy with that:)"
so i told her i'd be taking mandarin clasess and online korean language courses at the same time.maybe some french for dessert.haha
BIG DREAMS huh?like i said,i have big dreams and they are the ones keeping me alive till now:))

LOVE STORY?

PLAY THIS WHILE YA READ IT

would you say sorry if you could see my tears?

would you cry if you could hear my faint heartbeats?

would you fall on your knees if you could see what was in my mind all this time?

would you come back if you could hear my silent cries at night?

would you?

the truth is you wouldn't..

cause you're not that 'you' that I used to know

cause you're not here anymore

cause you've changed..

i still couldn't believe that the 'you' that I knew left me and died

i still couldn't believe the times I had with you were empty and meaningless

i still couldn't believe the memories we had together were gone..just like that

you said you loved me

you told me you cared for me

you promised me to never go away and leave me

but I knew that was all just a lie

breaking my heart into pieces

until i didn't know what a heart looked like anymore..

i foolishly waited for you..

i foolishly kept all our memories..

i foolishly cried over our never-existed-love

i was a fool for falling for you

'we' was never there in your life

it was just 'you' and 'I'

but I knew it was time for me to let go..

so i just wanna say my last goodbye.

have a happy life..be happy with her

i won't miss you anymore..

and the heartbeat machine went dead

and the doctors went crazy

and the empty love story ended just like that..

love stories aren't like any fairy tales..

fairy tales have happy endings all the time

but love stories seldom have..

-THE WRITER-

BE GRATEFUL

i try to let my emotions flow through this pen i'm holding

i try to let my mind wander to places and moments i've never had nor went

i try to understand what other people go through

but my heart wont try to comprehend

i've got my own story that often people ignore

that often people would say they dont have a minute to even listen to it

i wonder why people cant do the same for me

am i a fool or am i just too caring?

tell me.

i wonder why people sometimes ignore the good times they have

am i sentimental or am i just too loving?

tell me.

i wonder why some people question what they have

and hope for things they dont have

am i possesive or am i just grateful?

tell me again

i dont have a happy family 

but i'm happy to still have a great mom.

i dont have a big house 

but i'm happy to still have a place to live.

i dont eat expensive food

but i'm happy to still have something to eat everyday

i dont have good looks

but i'm happy to be a normal girl

i sigh when you say you hate yourself

what more do you need?

WHAT IF??

what if..

aren't you scared of that cursed two words?

only at this moment in time

will i confess that i have always been scared of them

why?

cause what if i tell you that i'm not as good as how you think i am,

what would you do?

would you accept me back and act like  nothing happens?

or would you leave and never forgive me?

what if i tell you how much you mean to me,

would you feel the same for me?

or would you just say that i'm no more than a friend?

what if i tell you i love you,

would you still be with me or would you rather walk away from me?

what if ..what if..and what if..